To get the full value of joy,you must have someone to divide it

Why people don’t recognize me??Why they don’t feel like looking at me? Why are they not willing to talk to me???Am I that bad that people don’t even bother to say thanks or hello or even a smile? Are they blind? Or they just ignore me.
The day when it happened was very confusing for me, I was so depressed that even in our class, my classmates would not recognize me. Just a compulsive smile. And I would drag out of the class after finishing the lecture. I would feel embarrassing when boys of our class would pass comments on me because of my spectacles but somehow I would gather the courage to face them. I would feel like leaving this world and go away somewhere else.

I would avoid going to college. I would attend lectures and practical directly .I would avoid my friends too. They would try talking to me. But I would not feel like talking to them. The feeling of having a big group was desperately there in my mind but it never happened. There was our group but girls like making many groups. Friends were there but I would still feel, the day would end thinking what went wrong.
But one day one of my friend said that you are someone special for your parents. So don’t think much about it. But I was so much depressed that I stopped being with my friends. I stopped attending the family functions.
One day my mom asked me the reason behind my behaviour.then I was just annoyed to answer her. I was so depressed then one day on my friend’s birthday all my group mates gave her a surprise party. They included me also. I felt better to organize the whole party. At last she was really surprised to see me in her birthday party with a big smile. She told me that this was her biggest gift of her birthday. I felt very nice and was very happy that day.
That day I called my parents and talked freely with my mom. My mom and dad felt very nice talking me. Then I gave sigh of relief and was very happy. It was one of my bad memories.

Hey friends, this is extract from my dairy when I wrote this I was too frustrated so couldn’t tell anybody.

Tension????Exams??? Finally REsults???


After every exam......long but short holidays, seems confusing!!!!!Then comes the tension of the result. We can enjoy a vacation for a short while but then when in the air comes the tension of the results as the date is declared, it happens that our parents start looking at us with expectations that one day suddenly we will tell them our results.



This is creates a tension in the mind. It was our first university exam. first time appearing for the university was a big tension, everything was new, large syllabus. No idea about the question papers, about the checking pattern. And finally with all the preparation in the preparation leave I gave the exam. And moreover the tension given by our seniors as they want show off their seniorship..I know, they are more experienced but they say na”Dare hua ko aur darana”that kind off.




We entered second year, started attending lectures,practicals.but the fear of the results in the mind was killing me. Pass or fail???was the question in the mind.
One day I was in our prosthetics practical and suddenly one of my friend called me and told me that our results are out. then we left the lab and ran towards the office but the server was down. then I ran out of the college then I called my friend to see my result, but the page was unable to open as she said. Each one of us calling out at home, friends………
It happened that the server got blocked. page was unable to open. the fear In my mind was increasing some of us were pass but few of us result was not declared yet. Then I called my dad. I told him to see my result from somewhere else. I said” I think I m failed and got nervous. but my dad said” not to worry I know u r pass. let the result be declared.” by those words of my dad I got relaxed. but on the other hand I was happy that all my friends are passed but they came in tension about my result. But felt sad about those who failed.
Finally after half an hour my dad called me and said that I m passed with 65 % marks. but as a father as usual he said that he expected a more from me. but I was not sure I told him to see it again if it was mine. but he was sure that it was mine.

My Dad said that yes my child its yours, have faith in urself.after hearing those words I just couldn’t stop myself and started jumping with happiness. There after all my relatives called me and gave me their regards and congratulated me. it was the best day of my life’s felt on top of the world.
This was one of my good memories which I will always cherish in my life.