To get the full value of joy,you must have someone to divide it

Why people don’t recognize me??Why they don’t feel like looking at me? Why are they not willing to talk to me???Am I that bad that people don’t even bother to say thanks or hello or even a smile? Are they blind? Or they just ignore me.
The day when it happened was very confusing for me, I was so depressed that even in our class, my classmates would not recognize me. Just a compulsive smile. And I would drag out of the class after finishing the lecture. I would feel embarrassing when boys of our class would pass comments on me because of my spectacles but somehow I would gather the courage to face them. I would feel like leaving this world and go away somewhere else.

I would avoid going to college. I would attend lectures and practical directly .I would avoid my friends too. They would try talking to me. But I would not feel like talking to them. The feeling of having a big group was desperately there in my mind but it never happened. There was our group but girls like making many groups. Friends were there but I would still feel, the day would end thinking what went wrong.
But one day one of my friend said that you are someone special for your parents. So don’t think much about it. But I was so much depressed that I stopped being with my friends. I stopped attending the family functions.
One day my mom asked me the reason behind my behaviour.then I was just annoyed to answer her. I was so depressed then one day on my friend’s birthday all my group mates gave her a surprise party. They included me also. I felt better to organize the whole party. At last she was really surprised to see me in her birthday party with a big smile. She told me that this was her biggest gift of her birthday. I felt very nice and was very happy that day.
That day I called my parents and talked freely with my mom. My mom and dad felt very nice talking me. Then I gave sigh of relief and was very happy. It was one of my bad memories.

Hey friends, this is extract from my dairy when I wrote this I was too frustrated so couldn’t tell anybody.